Ep 285: Same Podcast, One Year Apart (The Fourth Year)

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SARAH: Hey, what's up? Hello. Welcome to Sounds Fake But Okay, a podcast where an aroace girl I'm Sarah, that's me.

KAYLA: And a bi-demi sexual girl that's me Kayla 

SARAH: Talk about all things to do with love, relationships, sexuality, and pretty much anything else we just don't understand 

KAYLA: On today's episode, the same podcast one year apart, the fourth 

BOTH: Sounds Fake But Okay 

[Intro Music]

SARAH:  Welcome back to the pod for the last time in 2023. 

KAYLA: You're not going to hear from us for a year 

SARAH: We will disappear. 

KAYLA: You'll never hear from me again 

SARAH: Heartbreaking

KAYLA: What are you going to do? 

SARAH: That's our reminder to you that this is our last episode before we go on winter break. We'll be back on the 14th of January, so, mark that down besties. Also, buy our book for winter holidays 

KAYLA: For the holiday time 

SARAH: You know my cousin like… was like hey here are the details of the book exchange and I said, “Hey if you bring my book, I will sign it.” It's… you know just incentive 

KAYLA: Just saying

SARAH: I hope everyone gets my book for the book exchange because my cousin did specifically say this year that it should be a book that you've read and you enjoyed so that people don't just… like I think that how not to be a dick or asshole or whatever it is book will probably still be there but… 

KAYLA: Yeah

SARAH: I hope everyone else just brings my book and it's just a big trading of my book

KAYLA: Well, because it’d kind of rude if they didn't 

SARAH: Yeah

KAYLA: Because it's supposed to be something they enjoy so then like by not bringing it what are they saying? 

SARAH: What are they saying? Like are they saying they enjoyed something more? Are they saying… 

KAYLA: Are they saying they didn't even read it? 

SARAH: Are they saying didn’t read it. Are they saying I'm a loser and they don't love me and I should leave? 

KAYLA: Probably, that's… I think that's the most logical conclusion to jump to yeah. 

SARAH: Yeah, so it's tough out there 

KAYLA: Yeah

SARAH: I think that's all, merch, we have it, buy it for yourself, your loved ones, your dog 

KAYLA: My cat, who's making a lot of sounds right now 

SARAH: Delicious 

KAYLA: You already ate dinner. She's trying to reach her hand up into the food machine to pull it out 

SARAH: She doesn't have a… 

KAYLA: It doesn't…

SARAH: Thumb 

KAYLA: It doesn't work like that 

SARAH: Amazing

KAYLA: Well, what are you going to do? 

SARAH: Bogey got double breakfast of the other day because he’s a…

KAYLA: I know. Yeah, it happens. 

SARAH: All right. Well, in that event Kayla, what are we talking about this week this week? 

KAYLA: This week we're talking about the same thing we talk about every year at this time which is ourselves. 

SARAH: Yes, this is the season for being obsessed with yourselves. 

KAYLA: Yeah, I think so 

SARAH: I mean, it's always that season but it's especially that season now 

KAYLA: Now more than ever, love yourself 

SARAH: Okay. Shall we just dive in? 

KAYLA: Well, we can probably explain just in case 

SARAH: That's a good idea, you've been very distracted by cats this whole time 

KAYLA: I'm like really worried you're going to be able to hear her but I can't stop her at this point without…

SARAH: At this point, listen y'all, if you can hear weird noises, it's just cat. 

KAYLA: Yeah, I’m sorry 

SARAH: We're going to have to live with it 

KAYLA: It's just this… I just… you know, you know, anyway 

SARAH: Sometimes… sometimes cat, cat, you know

KAYLA: Sometimes cat, cat. Um, years ago, Billie Eilish started doing a series with Vanity Fair where she would do a video with them every year basically answering the same questions and you could like see how she progressed and like her career and her personal life or whatever and we said I want to do that so we started doing that four years ago different questions, we made our own questions 

SARAH: Imagine if we just asked ourselves Billie Eilish's question 

KAYLA: Like yeah, I don't even…

SARAH: How many Grammys do you have? Zero. Thank you 

KAYLA: Zero. Thanks, next. So, this is the fourth time we're doing it. 

SARAH: Mm-hmm. Number one question. 

KAYLA: Yes. 

SARAH: Oh, I said that weird, question number one

KAYLA: Uh-huh 

SARAH: What's your name? 

KAYLA: My name is Kayla Marie Kaszyca. 

SARAH: Wow, you're just doxxing yourself. 

KAYLA: I mean, I feel like it's probably out there 

SARAH: My name is Sarah Costello. If you want to find my middle name, it's not that hard to find but you got to do the work yourself. No, I'm am going to censor you, let the children search for themselves. 

KAYLA: Like there's no way we've never said your middle name in an episode. 

SARAH: Probably not. I'm like… there's like… probably we have I mean

KAYLA: Okay 

SARAH: I want to give them a slight challenge 

KAYLA: Okay, if you say so

SARAH: If they are really dedicated

KAYLA: Well, I tried to tell you and she wouldn’t let me 

SARAH: It's giving TikTok user Kahn you know

KAYLA: I don't know 

SARAH: She's the girl who consensually doxxes people. 

KAYLA: Oh, okay. 

SARAH: No, she's great, she works miracles. 

KAYLA: I love that for her. 

SARAH: She can find… basically she finds she finds out people's birthdays based on nothing but their TikTok. 

KAYLA: Oh, that's silly 

SARAH: And everyone is like, “I bet you can't get mine” and then she's like, “yeah, I can” and let me tell you how 

KAYLA: I love that

SARAH: Very good, anyway 

KAYLA: Good for her. 

SARAH: Um, my name is Sarah Costello

KAYLA: Yep 

SARAH: Esquire. I'm not an Esquire. 

KAYLA: Nope, BA 

SARAH: BA. I was thinking yesterday about how I'm the least educated person in my nuclear family because I only have one degree 

KAYLA: That is tough. But any of them have published books? 

SARAH: No 

KAYLA: Exactly 

SARAH: Do they have patents?

KAYLA: Have patents? Yes

SARAH: Yes 

KAYLA: Well, nothing to be done there 

SARAH: My sister is published in like Medicare Booklets. 

KAYLA: Oh, that's fun. That probably gets more readers than our book does if I'm honest. 

SARAH: No 

KAYLA: Damn, that's tough. It should 

SARAH: It's not like a booklet for year old, 65-year-old, it's like a very detailed thing about like Colorado. 

KAYLA: Oh. Okay, less fun. 

SARAH: I don't actually really know what it is, but I know it… 

KAYLA: Sure. Well… 

SARAH: I don't even know if it's Colorado. Anyway, what's today's date? We are recording on December 4th 2023, it is Kim Seokjin’s birthday. He is 31 and he is in the military 

KAYLA: And it’s 10:56 p.m. 

SARAH: It's 7:56 p.m. 

KAYLA: Good. 

SARAH: Nice. Time zones, they still exist.

KAYLA: Oh, unfortunately 

SARAH: How old are you? 

KAYLA: I am 26 

SARAH: Here's the thing Kayla you've been 26 for like seven months 

KAYLA: I'm never and I'm never sure about… 

SARAH: You shouldn’t have to think 

KAYLA: So confidently. Ever since Covid, I just don't… I never know how old I am 

SARAH: Like why do I know I'm 26? When I've only been 26 for a month and change. 

KAYLA: I don't know. I don't know 

SARAH: Ugh, unbelievable. All right. How do you identify? As a problem  

KAYLA: Oh

SARAH: But not really, I'm so non-confrontational 

KAYLA: Yeah, but I… you're my problem 

SARAH: That's so romantic 

KAYLA: It’s so sweet 

SARAH: Love 

KAYLA: Sarah identifies as Kayla's problem 

SARAH: To be clear, I'm not owned by Kayla. 

KAYLA: Yeah

SARAH: I'm like a community problem 

KAYLA: Yeah 

SARAH: Um, Kayla just has… Kayla just owns… She owns a lot of stock. 

KAYLA: I have a… the majority share, I think. No? 

SARAH: My parents? 

KAYLA: I've got to be pretty close 

SARAH: You can duke it out with Julie on that 

KAYLA: I mean, I'll give Julie majority share, but I've got to be like pretty high up there. I feel like 

SARAH: Yeah, that's fair 

KAYLA: Okay. I identify as a man-hater, maybe a misandrist some days 

SARAH:  Misandrist, is how you pronounce that? 

KAYLA: Misandrist, some days

SARAH: Like why are you trying… What are you… what are you doing? 

KAYLA: I don't know, I am 

SARAH: Trying to get canceled? 

KAYLA: I don't think you can cancel me for being a misandrist 

SARAH: Someone will try or someone could try 

KAYLA: The type of person that would try to do that. I… that's okay. You know? 

SARAH: I don't think they're listening right now. 

KAYLA: I don't know that they're listening and I don't know that I care 

SARAH: Let's just keep going 

KAYLA: Okay, I am a woman and I am bi-romantic demisexual 

SARAH: Slay. I forgot that this includes gender. I… 

KAYLA: Hmm

SARAH: I identify as an aroace, a human person like I… 

KAYLA: Every year we creep closer to my prophecy 

SARAH: No, but also every year I'm just like… but like is it worth actually changing anything? No 

KAYLA: Gender apathy? 

SARAH: Mm-hmm 

KAYLA: Mm-hmm. One day I'll get you 

SARAH: One day Kayla will get me with a net 

KAYLA: Didn't one of our friends recently see you and be like are you… 

SARAH: Are you not in binary yet? 

KAYLA: Binary yet? Yeah. I've had… Perry has done that, my roommate Perry who is our friend from college has asked me that about you before. They started like they theming you one time and I was like no and they were like, oh, I was like yeah I know, I'm waiting too, we're all waiting 

SARAH: Well, everyone is on the edge of their seat. 

KAYLA: Yeah 

SARAH: We’ll see 

KAYLA: Once again, I'm not pressuring Sarah into identifying a different way. I just have a prophecy that's waiting to be fulfilled is all 

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SARAH: She is prophetic. She is a soothsayer. 

KAYLA: I am 

SARAH: A Sarah sayer if you will 

KAYLA: I'm a Sarah sayer. So, I'm just waiting, you know 

SARAH: Great, so how do I identify? I don't care. Okay. Next question, how many social media followers does the pod have? I also don't care. 

KAYLA: Let's look, on Instagram we have 9,634 

SARAH: I would like to go back, hold on. Woman, and I don't care, you know, not like a general I don't care 

KAYLA: Um, I'm trying to… hold on. No, I don't… I don't have anything funny 

SARAH: Bitch who doesn't care 

KAYLA: A woman without a care 

SARAH: Without a care in the world. 

KAYLA: Yeah 

SARAH: I have a lot of cares in the world, actually. There's a lot to worry about 

KAYLA: Much to care about

SARAH: We'll get there. We'll get there. Anyway, how many social media followers does the pod have?

KAYLA: Like 9,600 something on Instagram, I think it's around the same for TikTok, Twitter, I don't look at her anymore really so who's to say 

SARAH: I feel like the platforms that we've focused on for this question have changed dramatically. 

KAYLA: Yeah, well because Twitter used to be like our main… 

SARAH: Yeah 

KAYLA: So now it's like Instagram, but even that are…

SARAH: Our TikTok has 9,173. 

KAYLA: Yeah 

SARAH: I don't care to go on our Twitter. So we won't know 

KAYLA: It's fair, it’s fair, we don't use it. 

SARAH: We don't use it, so 

KAYLA: Twitter died. 

SARAH: I don't even use my personal Twitter. I only use my BTS Twitter 

KAYLA: I've never been on Twitter for forever. 

SARAH: I use it a lot like I use Twitter quite a lot, but only my BTS Twitter 

KAYLA: Yeah, fair 

SARAH: But it's not… I don't only get BTS from it 

KAYLA: Mm-hmm. 

SARAH: How many patrons does the pod have? That’s a great question

KAYLA: Oh, I was looking at that the other day. I want to say like 150 something but that could be so wrong

SARAH: Bestie, I have this crazy, this wild thought which is that we can check 

KAYLA: You can check. I’m like in a precarious, I'm bed casting so like my mic is set up on my knee so I'm really… like I'm in a limited range of mobility at this time. 

SARAH: Okay. No, we don't have 273, that's not right. I want active, active. 

KAYLA: Mm-hmm. 

SARAH: Do we maybe only have 100 exactly? 

KAYLA: Yeah 

SARAH: That's so silly. We have less than before 

KAYLA: Yes, I love that 

SARAH: With the economy these days, you know?

KAYLA: Understandable 

SARAH: We appreciate all of our patrons very much past, present and future 

KAYLA: Past and future 

SARAH: You didn’t say present, that's really mean 

KAYLA: Present and future. No, we do, I feel like we don't talk about the Patreon a lot but speaking of I guess we have had a project for I feel like over two years now to transcribe… to transcribe every podcast episode from the past and we are finally, basically there, there's only like there's a couple like very recent like from the past couple of months episodes that are still missing 

SARAH: Mm-hmm

KAYLA: But basically, it's done and this has been like a two-year project…

SARAH: Perfect 

KAYLA: We've had like I feel like ten different transcribers over the years just like cycling through so and that's all because of the patrons that we were able to afford it. It's not cheap, you know, we want to pay people not just like do it through the computer. 

SARAH: We want to pay people for their labor 

KAYLA: Well, it has also usually been like aspec and queer people too, which has been really nice. 

SARAH: Yeah 

KAYLA: So, yeah, that has been really exciting. It has been a very long and hard project, but we're very excited that the pod is more accessible. So

SARAH: Slay 

KAYLA: Slay 

SARAH: Thank you to anyone who has transcribed our videos ever, videos? Our podcasts ever 

KAYLA: Yes. Yes. Thank you to everyone who has funded and who has helped. 

SARAH: Mm-hmm. Some people have done both 

KAYLA: Probably true. Yeah

SARAH: I think 

KAYLA: Probably 

SARAH: I don't know, whatever. 

KAYLA: Okay 

SARAH: Okay, slay, the next question, do you have a job? 

KAYLA: Yes 

SARAH: What is it? 

KAYLA: It's the same as last year and maybe… maybe not the year before, I might have just been about to… anyway, I work at Niche.com, as a marketing person 

SARAH: Is that your title? A marketing person. 

KAYLA: It's associate community manager. 

SARAH: That means nothing 

KAYLA: Hoping to knock off the associate soon because I'm 26 so 

SARAH: You got to manage that community by yourself 

KAYLA: I literally… 

SARAH: This is your community 

KAYLA: We don't have to get into it, but I literally do manage it by myself so there's no reason for associate to be there. It's just corporate bullshit, anyway 

SARAH: Anyway, I also have a job. 

KAYLA: Congrats 

SARAH: It's also the same as my job last year. Um, yeah, a job

KAYLA: Yep

SARAH: I work at a production company 

KAYLA: Yeah

SARAH: We produce, we actually have a show coming out every Wednesday 

KAYLA: I followed its Instagram and I already have like all of my roommates and neighbors ready to watch it. So, you have like six fans 

SARAH: Hell, yeah 

KAYLA: Ready fans 

SARAH: If you live in Canada, it will air before our next podcast comes out 

KAYLA: Oh shit, are you going to say what it is? Or are we just going to 

SARAH: Yeah

KAYLA: Okay 

SARAH: It's called Wild Card, it's going to be on the CBC in Canada and in The US it's going to be on the CW, in Canada it's premiering on January 10th, in the US It's premiering January 17th 

KAYLA: On… No, there's a girl… the main woman in it is from Riverdale, so that's how I know her 

SARAH: Yeah, we got one from Riverdale and we got one from Grey's Anatomy 

KAYLA: I love that 

SARAH: They posted the first Instagram post and all of the comments were like, oh my god, “It's Tony and Deluca” which were their characters names on Riverdale and Grey's Anatomy 

KAYLA: It's the crossover of the centch. 

SARAH: Anyway, watch that show so maybe I can make more money 

KAYLA: I plan on watching it. Don't worry about it. 

SARAH: Slay. I've watched it many times except for episode… 

KAYLA: I've seen some clips. I've seen the show binders 

SARAH: Except episode 9. I haven't seen episode 9 yet. 

KAYLA: I've seen a lot of set diagrams 

SARAH: Yeah 

KAYLA: That were a little weird… a little upsetting to look at actually. The human figure drawings in them were upsetting to me. 

SARAH: I'm really sorry to hear that

KAYLA: Yeah. 

SARAH: Yeah, I've seen every episode except for the 9th one 

KAYLA: It must be confusing 

SARAH: Yeah. I mean we jumped straight from 8 to 10 and I was like damn, there was some major plot points that happened in 9 and I have…

KAYLA: I bet. I already know something that's going to happen in season 2. I haven't even seen season 1 yet 

SARAH: We know the secret. 

KAYLA: I know the secret. What are you going to do? 

SARAH: Hi, this is Sarah from the future to be clear we're not actually renewed for a season 2 yet. I just… as I was listening to this editing I had this fear of like really dedicated Vanessa Morgan fans stumbling upon this podcast and being like, oh my god they just announced season 2 on this podcast. No, we didn't, we did not. Anyway, Vanessa Morgan fans. Love you. Bye. 

All right, where do you live? In my house 

KAYLA: I live in Cambridge, Massachusetts

SARAH: I live in North Hollywood. 

KAYLA: Yep 

SARAH: Nice. What's your relationship status? Vibing 

KAYLA: You saying that makes it like seem like you're dating. 

SARAH: No, I'm not 

KAYLA: Like you… 

SARAH: I'm just saying vibing in a single way. 

KAYLA: Yeah, just saying that seems like you're being like mysterious and like, you know

SARAH: No, no, I'm just vibing

KAYLA: Just vibing. I am in a relationship. Our anniversary is in ten days 

SARAH: Wow. How many? 

KAYLA: Five

SARAH: Wow older than this, um recurring pod topic 

KAYLA: Well, I thought you're going to say the podcast. And I was like, that's not true 

SARAH: No, no, no

KAYLA: But older than this concept. Yes 

SARAH: Yes 

KAYLA: Yes 

SARAH: Um, what was the best part about this year pod-wise? 

KAYLA: A book, duh

SARAH: We did book, we released book. We did audiobook, we released audiobook. We did book event at The Strand, at Literati, at something and something 

KAYLA: Poets 

SARAH: Poets, Busboys and Poets. 

KAYLA: Busboys and Poets, yes. I was going to say Poets and Quants, but that's a website 

SARAH: GR mom from the Golden Ratio she released a book like a week or two ago and she was saying how she was doing an event at Busboys and Poets and I was like… 

KAYLA: I did 

SARAH: I did that

KAYLA: I did that. Yes, all things, Book. Had we… what did we answer, because was the book like announced this time last year?

SARAH: Yeah. It was already on pre-order bestie. 

KAYLA: Was it? 

SARAH: Yeah 

KAYLA: Maybe it was the year…

SARAH: February, it was the year before

KAYLA: It was the year before this that we were like he he he 

SARAH: He he he

KAYLA: Oh, yes, as we write the link. Yeah 

SARAH: Yeah, published authors 

KAYLA: Published authors 

SARAH: How silly. What was the worst part about this year pod-wise? 

KAYLA: I was definitely feeling like very burnt out like midway through the year pod-wise

SARAH: I would just say like we continue to just never have topics

KAYLA: Yeah

SARAH: We just continue to never have ideas 

KAYLA: Yeah, I think like after the book stuff was done. We did this very silly thing where… I guess it was my fault because I do like our like scheduling with like guests or people of the outside world but I just kept pushing everything off until like March I feel. Like guests and being on other people's stuff because I was like we just have too much going on and then… 

SARAH: March doesn't exist 

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KAYLA: March and April hit and then I was like, “I want to quit the podcast.” I was like so overwhelmed and then we got through it and it was like fine, but that wasn't fun 

SARAH: Yeah, it's like in Parks and Rec where she schedules everything on March 31st

KAYLA: Which unfortunately 

SARAH: She doesn't think it exists.

KAYLA: Yeah, but it does, that's literally what I did 

SARAH: Quite literally. 

KAYLA: Yeah 

SARAH: Yeah. Good. What was the worst part about this year personally? I continue to suffer 

KAYLA: This past like two weeks honestly have been pretty bad 

SARAH: Yeah, you had a lot 

KAYLA: Like, I've definitely had like, you know some stressful times that like throughout the year, but like the most concentrated like has… that was like last week probably 

SARAH: Yeah

KAYLA: Which was like… it was a nice reminder that in general like I… life is pretty good, because I was like, oh I haven't like had to feel this way for a while. 

SARAH: Yeah

KAYLA: But, yep. I would also say going back to bad things for the pod like when the book was about to come out or was like out for review that was not a great time, looking at reviews was… 

SARAH: And I was like, Kayla, you need to stop 

KAYLA: I had to block a lot of websites on my computer and my phone and my work phone and my work computer and my iPad and every device I had. Um, that was not… that wasn't fun because it's just like, you know we worked really hard on it and obviously not everyone is going to like everything but, it wasn't fun, obviously, so. But we made it through and lots of people have said very lovely things, so 

SARAH: Yeah 

KAYLA: Yeah 

SARAH: A worst part about this year personally. Um, so are you saying last week? 

KAYLA: I mean, I guess, I don't know. I mean definitely… bad stuff 

SARAH: Recency bias 

KAYLA: Recency bias, like bad stuff has definitely happened, but it has not been like... the other things I would say, I'm not going to share here, so

SARAH: Yeah, it's almost like we have personal lives that we don't share every detail of in public.

KAYLA: Yeah, that's crazy 

SARAH: It’s a really silly funny thought 

KAYLA: Yeah 

SARAH: We do share probably way too much 

KAYLA: Yeah

SARAH: But… 

KAYLA: But we… you know, we can't share everything, we don’t want to get in trouble 

SARAH: We don’t want to get in trouble, we woo we woo. Worst part about this year personally? I don't… I feel like this year has been kind of just a rollercoaster mental health-wise for me like not for… not for any particular reason just because my brain is like he he 

KAYLA: Teeheehee 

SARAH: Teeheehee 

KAYLA: Time to be ill 

SARAH: Time to be ill. And then there have been situations that have not been like, I don't know this work has been… work has been work 

KAYLA: Yeah

SARAH: And I will not elaborate further, watch my show 

KAYLA: Watch her show 

SARAH: I'm actually not credited anywhere on the show

KAYLA: Which is so fucked, anyway. I'm mad about it 

SARAH: But sometimes I'll see a line and I'll be like that line is in there because of me 

KAYLA: I just… I can't believe you're not credited, that has been the worst part of my year. 

SARAH: Okay

KAYLA: So

SARAH: Oh, what is your best part about this year personally? We published a book 

KAYLA: Yeah, we published a book. I've seen Sarah infinitely more than I would on a usual year, which has been really good 

SARAH: Yeah. I sent you the world's best shirt 

KAYLA: The world's literal best shirt. Oh, um you also gave me the decorated Jeff Bezos like… 

SARAH: Like photo card. 

KAYLA: Yeah, photo card 

SARAH: Photo card with a top loader?

KAYLA: Yes, hanging up in my office so that Jeff Bezos can watch over me as my… I perform my capitalism and my roommate just noticed it for the first time today and he was like is that Jeff Bezos and then we remembered that we had taken a Polaroid picture of a picture of Newt Gingrich for our other roommate to hang up in their room. 

SARAH: Good 

KAYLA: So, now we just need to make sure all of us have something…

SARAH: Newt

KAYLA: Newt. Yeah. Book, Sarah. I feel like I've like strengthened some friendships this year, which has been really nice. 

SARAH: I think I've strengthened my arms this year. 

KAYLA: That's good 

SARAH: Congrats to my arms

KAYLA: Congrats to your arms. I've like kept up with my fitness in like October of… Last year I started like doing yoga and I've like been consistent with it for a year which like I've never been consistent with exercise before so huge, huge news 

SARAH: I have been better about my exorcism too because I need it for my brain 

KAYLA: Yeah

SARAH: And it was way better for me when I had an organized exorcism, but now I'm a big kid 

KAYLA: Yeah 

SARAH: I don't have an organized exorcism. 

KAYLA: You don't have an after-school exorcism club. 

SARAH: I exorcism myself. 

KAYLA: Yeah. 

SARAH: Well, right now me and my sister and my sister-in-law are doing a group exorcism 

KAYLA: Good. Always better with friends 

SARAH: Always better with friends, but I have here… y'all can't see it, I have here this handy-dandy little calendar with the… on every page and I put a little star on it every time I do an exercise. So, Kayla, you tell me how I've done. All right? 

KAYLA: We've definitely done this before, maybe we weren't recording though. 

SARAH: We weren't. This was February not very…

KAYLA: Not good. 

SARAH: But to be fair, we published a book 

KAYLA: Yeah, we were busy 

SARAH: This is March 

KAYLA: Very good. 

SARAH: It's pretty good. This is April 

KAYLA: Very good

SARAH: This is May 

KAYLA: Not as good

SARAH: This is June 

KAYLA: Not good 

SARAH: This is July 

KAYLA: Not good 

SARAH: This is August 

KAYLA: Very good 

SARAH: This is September 

KAYLA: Good 

SARAH: This is October 

KAYLA: Good 

SARAH: This is November 

KAYLA: Good 

SARAH: And that week off was because I was ill and I was trying to fix my back 

KAYLA: Fair 

SARAH: That was on purpose 

KAYLA: Good. She was recovering. 

SARAH: This is December. We're only 4 days in

KAYLA: To be seen. TBD 

SARAH: Anyway, what? 

KAYLA: Next 

SARAH: What were you doing? Rate your mental health one to ten 

KAYLA: Right now, or like the year? 

SARAH: Year 

KAYLA: Mm. I’ll give it like a… I feel like a seven and a half 

SARAH: Slightly above average. 

KAYLA: Yeah 

SARAH: I don't…

KAYLA: That's tough 

SARAH: Six seems too high. 

KAYLA: Yeah 

SARAH: I feel like I've really been living in like the 4-6 range. 

KAYLA: Yeah. If only there was something we could do to help that 

SARAH: I actually can't read 

KAYLA: Oh

SARAH: And that's really inhibiting my progress

KAYLA: Finding a therapist. Yeah, okay interesting 

SARAH: Um, I have to talk to my sister about my insurance ah

KAYLA: That's the worst part of your year, is getting kicked off of your parents insurance 

SARAH: Oh my God. It’s so true. 

KAYLA: Mm-hmm 

SARAH: One more dentist 

KAYLA: One more dentist

SARAH: One more dentist. If I can get in off the waitlist, but I've done it every time so 

KAYLA: You can do it

SARAH: How confident are you in your identity? One to ten

KAYLA: Like a nine 

SARAH: I think I'm an eight. I'm confident in the fact that I just, meh. 

KAYLA: Yeah, I like don't want to… I feel… I thought… I feel like a ten but I don't feel like I… you know, I always want to leave… 

SARAH: You feel like you can't give yourself a ten?

KAYLA: Yeah. 

SARAH: Room for growth. 

KAYLA: You never know, you know? 

SARAH: Yeah. Because we've talked about our relationship with our bodies as aspecs. How comfortable do you feel in your own body one to ten? 

KAYLA: This is tough because I've been having a tough couple like body weeks. Um… 

SARAH: When I have a tummy ache, not that good 

KAYLA: Not good. This one is hard for me because it really… it like varies, closely linked to my period and my cycle like I get very bloated on my periods 

SARAH: The moon 

KAYLA: And like I know that my period is coming when I start looking at myself and being like ugh, ugly

SARAH: The moon, the moon

KAYLA: I don't know, I'd say like a six. 

SARAH: I was going to give myself a six and a half and now I have changed my mind. I would also say six 

KAYLA: Okay 

SARAH: What did I say last year? 

KAYLA: Off to scroll, let me look, you literally last year also made people guess what your middle name was 

SARAH: Hell, yeah 

KAYLA: Piece of shit. 

SARAH: You're not very far into the episode? 

KAYLA: No, I'm trying to… I'm trying to like make sure I don't scroll past anything but. You also said that you live at your house last year, your jokes are very unoriginal 

SARAH: I'm consistent. 

KAYLA: Okay, last year I was also at a six you said, you said whatever number I said last year two numbers lower than that 

SARAH: Fuck 

KAYLA: Maybe one and a half lower, it depends on what I said. Did I say six, six is my go-to 

SARAH: Fuck 

KAYLA: And then I said that you had said last year you said better than the year before that so now you're back down but you didn't ever give numbers. So, you were at whatever you were… 

SARAH: I… 

KAYLA: The first year then you went up, then you went down 

SARAH: Down 

KAYLA: And then now you're at six, I guess 

SARAH: I'm at six point two seven. No six point two.. six point two eight two five 

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KAYLA: You said, well, next year when we check in I'll be like two below last year which is higher than the year before and I said this was like a… 

SARAH: What does that even mean?

KAYLA: I was like, this is like a math problem if Sarah said two below last year, but last year was higher

SARAH: Well, this year I said six point two eight two five 

KAYLA: And you said that you weren't good at story problems and that's why you failed AP Calc 

SARAH: It's true. 

KAYLA: You’re funny

SARAH: I didn’t fail the class, I failed the test. I failed the AP test. I got an A- in the class 

KAYLA: Yeah, well, there's your answer. I guess. I can't wait to do this again next year

SARAH: Well, I gave a number for the first time ever, I gave a number six point two eight two five 

KAYLA: Okay, perfect. I cannot wait to check in on this next year. This is really cutting-edge stuff. 

SARAH: I'm consistent, what can I say? 

KAYLA: Yeah, what are you supposed to do about it? 

SARAH: How often do you should, I feel like I don't actually should that often but I also don't combat the shoulds very often. I just don't 

KAYLA: Interesting 

SARAH: Like I don't mean that like I'm… I've grown beyond shoulding. I just mean I think I have grown beyond thinking 

KAYLA: Yeah 

SARAH: I don't think there's anything in there. 

KAYLA: Yeah, I would agree with that. I don't know. I feel like I've gotten better about it 

SARAH: Hmm

KAYLA: It depends, I feel like there's some areas of life I'm really good at not shoulding and then others where it's not as good, you know what I mean? 

SARAH: I think I've gotten better at you know, I would like to thank the academy 

KAYLA: Okay 

SARAH: And the person who made the TikTok about this elevator song for their dog. 

KAYLA: What are you saying? 

SARAH: She's so brave 

KAYLA: Okay 

SARAH: And well behaved. She is not afraid. Because I… I just sing that to myself and I'm like she is so brave. 

KAYLA: She is 

SARAH: And she's well behaved and she's not afraid 

KAYLA: So beautiful 

SARAH: And as cringy as I did find that song at first I do think it has positively impacted my life because I just sing it to myself and I'm like… 

KAYLA: Good

SARAH: You know what? I am doing my best and my best might not be very good, but that's okay, I'm doing my best. 

KAYLA: You are doing your best 

SARAH: So 

KAYLA: So, take that 

SARAH: There’s that 

KAYLA: What do you want most for the aspec community in the next year? Peace and quiet. But like not like quiet as in we're being silenced

KAYLA: Yeah

SARAH: Just like peace and quiet. 

KAYLA: Yeah. I want people to leave us the fuck alone. 

SARAH: I want us to be heard when we wish to be 

KAYLA: Yeah

SARAH: And when I don't want your attention don't fucking look at me. 

KAYLA: Mm-hmm. 

SARAH: Okay. All right. So, are you saying the same thing? 

KAYLA: Um. Yeah 

SARAH: What gives you hope? I think I say this every year but like young people 

KAYLA: Yeah

SARAH: Who continue to fight for good things in spite of the world being a dumpster trash bucket of shit juice 

KAYLA: Mm-hmm 

SARAH: Because there's so much to be disillusioned and anti-hopeful, what's the… what's the anti-hopeful?

KAYLA: Despondent 

SARAH: Depressed, disengaged, so many… so much… so many things to be all those things but we keep trying even though it's hopeless, hopeless 

KAYLA: Hopeless 

SARAH: Nailed it. 

KAYLA: Published authors 

SARAH: Published authors. You know what I did today? One of my friends on Twitter posted a picture of some snow because she lives in Canada and I saw the snow and I said “Oh, that looks like real wet thick shit, too.” And my other friend responded… 

KAYLA: Why would you say that? 

SARAH: My other friend responded, “me seeing this reply and not the tweet it was in response to on my timeline” 

KAYLA: Yeah, that's scary 

SARAH: And I said I am a writer, an author, a weaver of words 

KAYLA: Mm-hmm 

SARAH: And our friend Summer said maybe you should be a smut writer with that filthy mouth

KAYLA: I mean, yeah, seems like you're… yeah 

SARAH: I weave words, I was right though, it was real wet thick snow because it was right around freezing is what I was informed 

KAYLA: Yeah, but you didn't need to say that, you know 

SARAH: Anyway, yeah that, what? that has nothing to do with…

KAYLA: No, it does not… Um, I mean, I think my answer is usually the same, this is like not on a macro level but more on like a personal hope level 

SARAH: Mm-hmm 

KAYLA: Is my cats and I feel like pets in general. I feel like anytime I'm like feeling shit about myself or I'm like I am the worst person ever I'm always like these stupid little idiots love me unconditionally and they, you know, that really does something 

SARAH: So silly, so silly 

KAYLA: It’s just so nice you're like as shitty as I could be these little cats they'll still like me and that's pretty nice 

SARAH: Mm-hmm. You know what I have sometimes, I have the experience of this past year? If everything is very bad and then the cat misbehaves and I'm like do you not see what I'm going through right now? 

KAYLA: Yeah

SARAH: Like now is not the time

KAYLA: Yeah, they do… yeah, they do like to do that 

SARAH: Like if you're just like breaking down about something and then the cat is like I'm not going to stop scratching the couch, it’s like that's going to be the thing that's just going to push me to the end 

KAYLA: Cat is like time to lick my asshole while you're crying. Is this a good time? 

SARAH: Not even that just like… Because that's not misbehaving, that's just being… 

KAYLA: Nice pose

SARAH: Having no decorum 

KAYLA: I guess, it's just being rude. 

SARAH: Yeah. So, animals they're just like us. Um, I don't… we don't lick our butts 

KAYLA: Some people do I don't know 

SARAH: How? This is probably like the whole like dudes trying to suck their own dick thing. 

KAYLA: Yeah, I guess most people probably can't 

SARAH: Probably can't. Anyway, what are you most worried about right now? 

KAYLA: Uh-huh. Um 

SARAH: Um, I got a couple, genocide.

KAYLA: Yeah 

SARAH: Fascism. 

KAYLA: Yeah 

SARAH: The decline of global democracy. 

KAYLA: Mm-hmm 

SARAH: A lot of things that fall underneath those three categories 

KAYLA: Yeah 

SARAH: Those are the big ones 

KAYLA: I would agree 

SARAH: Great. A year from now where do you hope the pod will be? on the Internet 

KAYLA: Mm-hmm 

SARAH: It’s be really embarrassing if it just left 

KAYLA: It’d be kind of weird if it was elsewhere 

SARAH: If it like became a poster in Bozeman, Montana 

KAYLA: Yeah, I don't know how that would go 

SARAH: Way less accessible

KAYLA: Yeah 

SARAH: Great for the people of Bozeman, Montana 

KAYLA: Yeah

SARAH: But they can listen to this pod, you know? 

KAYLA: Yeah, they can get it. I assume 

SARAH: Anyway 

KAYLA: Mm-hmm 

SARAH: Aside from on a poster in Bozeman, Montana. Where do you hope the pod will be a year from now? 

KAYLA: Where it is now, I guess, I don't know. 

SARAH: I hope it will not feel like a burden. I'm not saying it does now. 

KAYLA: Yes. 

SARAH: I just I hope like that 

KAYLA: Continues to be that way

SARAH: Yeah. 

KAYLA: Yes

SARAH: That's more so in relation to myself not in relation to the pod, but

KAYLA: Fair 

SARAH: I hope the pod is not a burden to you either, dear listener. 

KAYLA: Yes. Yeah. Yeah, I hope it stays chill, I don't know, I think we've gone through waves with this where especially I have been like very ambitious and have wanted it to be very big and then I don't really feel that way anymore 

SARAH: Mm-hmm

KAYLA: Obviously, I still want us to like reach the people who we need to reach but I'm not trying to like make this my career or like, you know

SARAH: Yeah 

KAYLA: Put every waking minute of my spare time into it, I just want to, you know, I want it to be my goal is for it to be like fun, you know. I think we've gone through waves where it has been like less fun than it was originally because it was originally just meant to be like just for fun. 

SARAH: Yeah 

KAYLA: So yeah, I'm just… I want it to be something that we enjoy spending time on 

SARAH: It's like, you know… you know when Instagrams have like the label that's like business and then there's the one that's just for fun. 

KAYLA: Yeah, that's us 

SARAH: That’s us

KAYLA: That’s us, just for fun

SARAH: A year from now where do you hope you will be? I just wrote writing, I hope I'll be writing a year from now. 

KAYLA: Mm-hmm

SARAH: I'm still thinking about your roast from the other day 

KAYLA: I hope that motivates you. I hope it… I hope it moves you 

SARAH: It motivates me, the anger

KAYLA: You know what my cat is doing right now? behind my computer, licking her asshole 

SARAH: No decorum 

KAYLA: Licking her asshole live on the pod

SARAH: No decorum

KAYLA: I hope I'm still in the Boston area, I really don't feel like moving. 

SARAH: Now, you took that literally 

KAYLA: Yeah, no, like that's the goal of… it's literally a big goal of mine to not be moving next year 

SARAH: I’ll move 

KAYLA: I mean, I'm going to move my apartment. I'm not going to resign my lease. Don't tell my landlords but 

SARAH: So, you are moving? 

KAYLA: So, I am moving but I don't want… you know what I mean? Not like, you know

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SARAH: What's something you couldn't do this year that you hope to be able to do next year? I would like to travel for fun. 

KAYLA: Yeah 

SARAH: My family was originally supposed to go to Ireland next year

KAYLA: Mm-hmm

SARAH: It's looking like it's now going to be 2025 for logistical reasons that are they are 

KAYLA: Yeah

SARAH: Probably for the better for all parties involved but 

KAYLA: Yeah 

SARAH: I only ever traveled for… like I traveled for pod things and then I just fly back and forth to Michigan a lot and I do 

KAYLA: Yeah

SARAH: I do like going home, but I also would like to go somewhere even if it's just like to fucking Joshua tree or the Big Bear and just… but again this is a problem of like being a single bingo wingle. 

KAYLA: Yeah

SARAH: It's like “well, who am I going to go with?” 

KAYLA: Yeah

SARAH: But I would like to… I would like to do a vacation just to vacate 

KAYLA: That would be nice 

SARAH: It doesn't have to be long, I would just like to vacate 

KAYLA: Mm-hmm 

SARAH: How about you? 

KAYLA: Um, well, I did mean of another good thing from this year was that I went to Ireland in Scotland 

SARAH: Mm-hmm

KAYLA: It was like my first big like adult… 

SARAH: A way to rub it in my face 

KAYLA: Sorry, it just reminded me, but it was… it was, you know, it was my first like big adult trip especially with like me and Dean, so it was… 

SARAH: Some of us need a bride 

KAYLA: Informative. Some of us didn't… Couldn't do this year that I want to do. Hmm. I don't know fucking not travel… 

SARAH: Get a third cat so you can stack them on top of each other like a triangle 

KAYLA: I can't, I can't do, I'm sorry. I can't do a third cat. Dean also like really wants a dog so like 

SARAH: Dog good. 

KAYLA: I have a third cat and a dog. I know 

SARAH: Dog good 

KAYLA: I know. Um, yeah, I don't know, I don't know if I have an answer for that

SARAH: Okay. What is the one thing you want out of next year? This is like so stupid and cliche

KAYLA: Mm-hmm

SARAH: But um… That was cliche by the way, I don't think anyone understood that 

KAYLA: I got that 

SARAH: Yeah, Kayla… Well, yeah, because we have worms for brain, worms for brain, one brain, one brain

KAYLA: We have one worms for brain. We have one long worm that goes across the United States. It goes from… in one of my ears out the other one across the world into your ear

SARAH: No, no, no, no. It’s giving parasite, I don’t like it, I don’t like that at all 

KAYLA: Worm brain, worm brain 

SARAH: Anyway, we can share one brain cell and it speaks a weird language. 

KAYLA: It's a worm, it’s a worm

SARAH: Worm. What… Oh, on Suchwita, which is Min Yoongi’s Youtube show the question he always asks his guests is like as a person not as like an artist or whatever like what is your like dream? Your one thing, and like they all have very different answers. Like some of them are like I would like to achieve this thing in my life and some of them are like I'd like to go to France. I don't know if any of them said that but…

KAYLA: Sure

SARAH: But it's… every time he asks that question. I'm like “Damn, bro, I just want to be happy. I don't know. I can't think of specific things” 

KAYLA: Fair 

SARAH: And it is cliché 

KAYLA: It is cliché, but it's true. It's cliche for a reason, you know

SARAH: Yeah 

KAYLA: I would like to continue my like relaxation journey. I don't know, I've explained it to my therapist… 

SARAH: Kayla wants to keep chilling 

KAYLA: Okay, listen though, I've explained it to my therapist as like taking an early retirement from my like hustling 20s because I feel like we achieved a lot very early in our 20s that a lot of people hustle their entire 20s into their 30s to achieve, you know and I feel like I spent a lot of time feeling like I always had to be very productive I always had to like do all this big stuff and then I did it and now I feel like I can kind of like fucking chill

SARAH: I think that's true for you 

KAYLA: Okay. What do you mean by that? 

SARAH: I just mean that in the sense of like as far as I'm aware in your career you're not like I really want to do this next big thing 

KAYLA: Yes 

SARAH: Whereas my career functionally hasn't started. 

KAYLA: Yes, true. Like I am not… in my career I'm like where… I'm like good where I am. Yes, I'm not like the type of person who's like really trying to like climb a corporate ladder or like become a VP or whatever 

SARAH: Yeah. And I'm not super ambitious in the traditional sense, but I also am not doing the job that I want… that I ultimately want to do. 

KAYLA: Yes 

SARAH: So, for me, I'm still very much in like grinding funky mode. 

KAYLA: Yes 

SARAH: But not… 

KAYLA: I mean, yes. No, I get what you mean, I mean I think yeah, our careers and our like goals that way are just very different

SARAH: I think for me all the pod stuff has felt like a side quest. Aand that's why people are always like Sarah like you wrote a book like that's amazing and I'm like, okay but it's nonfiction 

KAYLA: Yes, it didn't get you closer to your ultimate goal where I think I never had very clear set goals anyway, I just wanted to like be successful in some way and this got me there. You know what I mean? 

SARAH: Yeah

KAYLA: Not like I'm going to stop trying to do anything but like this fulfilled kind of like what I was searching for I guess 

SARAH: Whereas I'm fucking brain so tiny, I said I'm going to go into creative field where you have to keep getting new job every day 

KAYLA: Yeah

SARAH: And suffer always 

KAYLA: Not fun 

SARAH: Why did I do that? 

KAYLA: Because you're good at it 

SARAH: At what girl?

KAYLA: Yeah, well, I don't know 

SARAH: Sometimes I'm just like what if I just like wrote a book that did well and just like move back to Michigan 

KAYLA: Sounds great to me. 

SARAH: But I can't do that, I don't have a book right now 

KAYLA: Well…

SARAH: I don't know what to tell you

KAYLA: All right. Well… 

SARAH: What's one thing you want out of next year? Did we ask that question? 

KAYLA: Yeah, I think that's what we just were talking about, so 

SARAH: Where was it or was it the thing… we… there's two questions that are similar which was something you couldn't do this year that you want to be able to do next year and then one thing you want out of next year 

KAYLA: We did both of those because I said what I want is to keep big chilling. 

SARAH: Oh, yeah, yeah, I think you answered and I didn't

KAYLA: You said… 

SARAH: I want a composter

KAYLA: Okay 

SARAH: What's one thing that made this year better?

KAYLA: My friends

SARAH: BTS 

KAYLA: I think that's probably what you said last year. I don't feel like… 

SARAH: It’s part of it at all

KAYLA: But… 

SARAH: Great. If you could give the you from a year ago advice, what would it be? 

KAYLA: Don't look at your book reviews you fucking idiot 

SARAH: Stop it, get some help

KAYLA: Get a therapist

SARAH: What’s something you're putting off doing right now? Getting a therapist

KAYLA: Getting a therapist. Um, well, there's… I need to finish my laundry but I physically can't because it's in my roommate’s room and they're probably going to bed right now. So, that's… I'm not so much putting it off as my roommate is putting it off for me. I don’t… going to bed. I don't know 

SARAH: Yeah, why do you do the pod? 

KAYLA: Good… good 

SARAH: Because what would I do if I didn't? 

KAYLA: Exactly 

SARAH: You all answer that for us. Sum up the year with one song that you hate. 

KAYLA: Yeah, this sucks 

SARAH: It's my favorite. I have a song 

KAYLA: I need to look at my Spotify. 

SARAH: It is D-DAY by Agust D 

KAYLA: Wait, I think I actually have one, Man's World by Marina, it's a good man-hating song. 

SARAH: Nice 

KAYLA: I feel like I really came into and accepted my man-hating this year 

SARAH: Good for you 

KAYLA: And then my therapist keeps telling me it's fine every time I bring it up so take that, everyone who's trying to cancel me. 

SARAH: That's a permissive structure if I've ever heard one. 

KAYLA: I don't know what to say, she keeps saying it's fine, so 

SARAH: Mine is D-Day by Agust D, which can best be described as aggressive, threatening optimism. 

KAYLA: Good 

SARAH: You know? 

KAYLA: I do 

SARAH: Ending fun, what's the most memorable things the allos did this year? Every year I'm like, “damn I should have prepared for this one” and I think… 

KAYLA: I think that Gerry the Golden Bachelor turning out to be evil is pretty fair

SARAH: That was all I could think of too. Yeah… 

KAYLA: But I think that's…

SARAH: Recency bias 

KAYLA: Recency bias but… Yeah, but also like who would have thought man? 

SARAH: Who would have thunk that one of the Bachelor contestants is bad 

KAYLA: I can't think of anything else. I don't know. 

SARAH: Okay, great. Everyone tell us your most memorable thing the allos did this year. Who was your most hated… your most hated person this year? 

KAYLA: I can't say that. Oh. Yeah, it was well my first thought was… But 

SARAH: Oh 

KAYLA: It's also pretty up there, the Israeli government. Is that a person? 

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SARAH: I wrote down BB Netanyahu 

KAYLA: Okay, cool 

SARAH: Who is in fact the prime minister 

KAYLA: Perfect 

SARAH: I won't even call him BB. We're not… I don't know him like that. That's Benjamin 

KAYLA: Exactly 

SARAH: What's one thing you'd like to say to our listeners? It the last question, make it good. 

KAYLA: Thank you. Thanks. 

SARAH: Thank you. 

KAYLA: Thank you. Um… 

SARAH: I think you're cool. 

KAYLA: I also think you're cool 

SARAH: I know that I don't spend a lot of time in the discord but whenever I do I'm like “wow, these fuckers are so cool” and I like them and I'm glad that they're here and I will probably not spend more time in the discord on account of my brain can only handle three things. 

KAYLA: Mm-hmm

SARAH: Because it is worm, but… 

KAYLA: Because it is worm 

SARAH: But y'all are great and I'm glad that you have each other 

KAYLA: Yes, I'm very thankful for you all. Um, I agree. It's very fun seeing the community that people have made together because of this pod and I hope that it has helped you in some way 

SARAH: Yeah

KAYLA: Yeah 

SARAH: It's helped us 

KAYLA: It has like I feel like we never answer the question… 

SARAH: It also kicked us in the nose 

KAYLA: It also kicked us in the nose. But I feel like we also… we’re always bad at answering the question of like why do we do the podcast because it's like hard to conceptualize. 

SARAH: Yeah 

KAYLA: But like obviously we would not be doing it if it did not bring us joy and a lot of stuff to our life so 

SARAH: Fulfillment 

KAYLA: Exactly, and that's because of you guys, like I don't think we would have kept doing it if people kept not listening, so

SARAH: Mm 

KAYLA: Isn't there… there's like some stat, about like 99% of podcasts or something never make it past like second episodes or something so, pretty crazy 

SARAH: We're beating the odds every day. 

KAYLA: We really are, every 

SARAH: In honor of 300 

KAYLA: Mm-hmm. 

SARAH: That's it. 

KAYLA: Okay. 

SARAH: That was the podcast. 

KAYLA: We did it. 

SARAH: So, see you next year in more ways than one. Kayla what's our poll for this week?

KAYLA: What does that mean? 

SARAH: Well, we'll see you… we'll see you next year in that the next pod episode is in 2024, and we'll see you next year as in we'll do this pod again next year. 

KAYLA: Oh, I see. I thought you were like teasing so I was like are we going on tour? 

SARAH: No

KAYLA: What do you mean? 

SARAH: Are we going on tour? 

KAYLA: Not that I know of 

SARAH: Are we announcing something to each other? 

KAYLA: I do have something to tell you that I'm doing for the pod that you don't know about 

SARAH: Are you getting married to it? 

KAYLA: No, I'm going to a… it's like a communication. It's like the association of like communication experts or some conference for people that study communications and do professor things, but they've like a conference and there's like a sexuality like cohort and they were like we want to do a panel on people that are aspec and also a non-aspec identity and do you want to do it? And it's in Michigan. It's in Grand Rapids, so I was like, okay I'm a communications person and I'm also this and I just found out today that the panel… 

SARAH: Slay

KAYLA: Got accepted. So, I'm doing that in a April 

SARAH: Slay, the most aspec month, April 

KAYLA: April, perfect. It’s like that's not what aspec is 

SARAH: You know, I said that before I thought of April so I was just… it was just…

KAYLA: Hoping 

SARAH: Going off my tongue

KAYLA: Good, good, good

SARAH: Okay, cool, what everyone our poll 

KAYLA: Mm-hmm 

SARAH: Is what is the most memorable things the allos did this year to you? 

KAYLA: Yes, yes

SARAH: Not to you personally but like…

KAYLA: I mean, it can be 

SARAH: In you in your opinion 

KAYLA: Yeah 

SARAH: And then should we ask another question? 

KAYLA: Maybe 

SARAH: Sum up the year with a song. I want to know what your songs are. Give me your… 

KAYLA: That's a good one. I hate that question 

SARAH: Because recently people were… Did… they did their Spotify wrapped and such

KAYLA: Yeah  

SARAH: Some of my moots on Twitter we're doing a thing where it's like give me a number between one and a hundred and I'll give you that number of song 

KAYLA: Oh that’s…

SARAH: From my 2023 playlist and I discovered a song that way that's a fucking… dude

KAYLA: Good 

SARAH: So 

KAYLA: So, there you go.

SARAH: It's called Last Day on Earth by Beabadoobee

KAYLA: Beabadoobee. 

SARAH: Beabadoobee

KAYLA: That's very silly 

SARAH: Anyway, it's a good song. That's my song wreck. Also, D-Day by Agust D. 

KAYLA: Okay 

SARAH: Great. Kayla, what's your beef and your juice for this week? 

KAYLA: My beef is, well, I got back into my house on Friday, but then it was a very busy weekend of celebrating being back to our house and then now we have some house guests and then I leave on Wednesday to go to a conference. So, my life is just like, it's all over the place, which is stinky. My juice is my inhaler, it works. 

SARAH: Is it a liquid inside the inhaler? 

KAYLA: I have to imagine

SARAH: Like is it a juice? 

KAYLA: I think so

SARAH: And then it becomes a… 

KAYLA: I don't see how it could be anything, I think… I don't see how it could be anything other than a liquid in there but… 

SARAH: Yeah

KAYLA: I guess I can look it up 

SARAH: Probably juice. 

KAYLA: But yeah, it works, wouldn't you believe? 

SARAH: Wow

KAYLA: I know, who would have thought 

SARAH: My beef is BTS rest of them going away, Jimin and Jungkook going together like besties. There's this thing that you can like apply for in South Korea where you basically apply to have a buddy 

KAYLA: That's very silly 

SARAH: And they are each other's buddies. 

KAYLA: That's cute 

SARAH: And they're going to be under Jin in his regiment. 

KAYLA: Oh my gosh. 

SARAH: He's going to be the boss of them 

KAYLA: That's funny 

SARAH: And then also Namjoon and Taehyung are also doing the military but not together like besties 

KAYLA: Boo

SARAH: My juice is, I think it'll be nice to have a little pod break 

KAYLA: Mm-hmm

SARAH: It'll be nice to be home for the holidays. Yep, email us about your beef, your juice, your… On our social media @soundsfakepod. We also have a Patreon, patreon.com/soundsfakepod if you'd like to give us your money there and fund all of our Transcriptions and maybe something else now, now that we're not going to be spending all of our…

KAYLA: Oh, yeah, we have to figure it out now 

SARAH: Guess what we’re going to do 

KAYLA: Okay, I'm looking up what's in an inhaler and I'm not getting any straight answers, it can be dry powder, metered-dose, whatever that is or soft mist, so I guess maybe it's not liquid 

SARAH: Mm 

KAYLA: News to me 

SARAH: Damn 

KAYLA: But when I did a nebulizer as a kid, I'm pretty sure that was liquid. Yes, liquid medicine into mist but that… I used a nebulizer as a child. So, I don't know what mine is currently

SARAH: I don’t even know what that means

KAYLA: It's like… 

SARAH: Don’t explain it. Our $5 patrons… 

KAYLA: Well… 

SARAH: We’re promoting this week are Sofia P, Tall Darrell… 

KAYLA: Is this how you felt when I laughed at you? When you wanted to write? Is this how it felt? 

SARAH: Yeah. Alex is in star and Alex is in space. Our $10 patrons who are promoting something this week are Arcness who’d like to promote the Trevor project, Benjamin Ybarra who would like to Tabletop games, Boston Smith who’d like to promote their YouTube and TikTok @yourbuddyBoston and Selena Dobson who would like to the community Nick… no, the entertainment community fund to support striking workers, the strikes have ended, Selena would you like to change your… the thing that you’re promoting? If so, let us know if not, I guess we'll just continue promoting that fund in preparation for the next strike 

KAYLA: Mm, good

SARAH: Our other $10 patrons are Allison, Annie, David Harris, Derek and Carissa, Albeter, my aunt Jeannie, Kayla's dad, Maff, Martin Giselle, Parker, Purple Haze, Barefoot Backpacker, Song of Storm and Val. Our $15 patrons are Ace who’d like to promote the writer Crystal Share, Andrew Horne who’d like to promote the Missile Spectrum podcast, Dia Chapelle who’d like to promote twitch.tv/melodydia, Hector Mario who’d like to promote friends that are supportive and help you grow as a better person. Nathaniel White who’d like to promote nathanieljwhitedesigns.com, Kayla’s Aunt Nina who’d like promote KateMaggartArt.com. And our $20 patron is dragonfly who would like to promote a lovely, delightful holiday season with absolutely no fucking conflict. 

KAYLA: Mm-hmm

SARAH: And a happy new year without that one bitch on New Year's Rocking Eve kissing a random person 

KAYLA: Kissing everybody 

SARAH: I hope she doesn't… 

KAYLA: You are… 

SARAH: I know she will. But I hope she doesn't 

KAYLA: You are all invited to my new year's party if you can find it 

SARAH: You're not invited to mine 

KAYLA: It's called 2020 whore. I forget what the subtitle was but it's slut-themed so everyone has to dress like a little slut even if you're not one you can just be a slut in spirit 

SARAH: So, my party is invite-only. It's only for my family, but only certain parts of my family. It's very exclusive 

KAYLA: What? Yeah, I'll just be quiet about it. Want to say hi? 

SARAH: We're basically done 

KAYLA: We're basically done. Do you want to say hi? Billie was being a little shit the whole fucking time. 

SARAH: Hi

DEAN: Hello

SARAH: Oh

DEAN: Miss I, Kayla is currently occupying our bed. We have guests in town. So, they're taking up her office 

KAYLA: Anything else? 

DEAN: Hi, Sarah 

SARAH: Hey Dean, I know you… I know you can't hear me 

KAYLA: She asaid that I know you can hear me 

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DEAN: But I'm sure you're saying something really profound 

SARAH: Oh, yeah, like bugujucu

KAYLA: She said bugujucu

DEAN: You never let me down 

SARAH: Thanks for listening… 

KAYLA: This has been…

SARAH: This has been Dean. Thanks for listening, tune in not next Sunday, but on Sunday January 14th 2024 for more of us in your ears 

KAYLA: And until then take good care of your cows 

SARAH: Give them a little party blower for New Year's 

DEAN: I was on the podcast? 

KAYLA: Yeah. Why do you think I was holding up my microphone? Do you want to change anything you said? 

DEAN: I thought you were just still talking. 

KAYLA: No 

DEAN: But I don’t care

KAYLA: Anything else you want to say to the people?

DEAN: I would have rehearsed my lines better

KAYLA: Oh 

SARAH: Bye 

KAYLA: We'll do some pickups later. Bye

DEAN: Wait, it's still recording? 

KAYLA: It’s still… yeah anything else? 

DEAN: No, just the cows 

KAYLA: Okay, I'm really turning it off this time. Okay, goodbye.

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